the words on top of my head

there are times when I miss your gaze
or when I want to be in that phase
wherein I just long for your presence
or inhale your essence

I want to keep making moments
and the fact that both of us are open
to whatever that may happen
I know that these won’t be forgotten

Even though the time is now
I really want to make a vow
to stay with you for a long time
(I just added this line to make it rhyme)

Here I go again with my promises
making do with all my tests
to see whether or not this is worth it
making time to just sit

sit and think about the consequences —
maybe, if I’m confident
about my choices, I won’t have to consider
and just make do with it and snicker

I always do things to be sure
and you know that I do this to assure
that everything will go smoothly
and everything must go through me

before anything is finalized
I sit still and just fantasize
about the what-ifs I have in life
and with all of that, just survive

And you know what? I want to experience this
all with you, there are no things I want you to miss
I’m happy with what I decided on
to go through with this relation that I’ve come upon.